In the beginning, Adam and Eve had no hindrance to being in the presence of the Lord. After their disobedience, they entered a whole new perception. They had gained self-awareness. With self-awareness comes concern for self. How do I look? What are they thinking of me? What should I do? Concern for self hinders our ability to enter the presence of the Lord.
An internal battle commences each time I want to spend time with the Lord. There is always one more thing to do before I can start. Everything I forgot to do somehow miraculously comes to mind. (I should make a list.) When I finally do get situated, my mind scatters to a thousand thoughts. As I strive to get my mind settled, I realize I haven’t tuned my guitar in a while. The guitar turns out to be in pretty good tune, but it’s always good to check. Then it’s, what song to begin with, and what key is that in?
Finally I begin to sing. Boy, my voice is getting old. That note used to be so clear. Wow, this is a great worship song. If I ever lead worship again, I’ll have to include this song. Then I realize I’ve sung through the entire song without a conscious thought about who I’m singing to. I cried out, “Help me Lord.” I sang the song through a few more times trying to focus my mind. Then the Lord spoke to me, “Write about this struggle.”
All along he knew what I was there for. I wanted to hear from him about what to write this week. In his humble way, he answered the question I didn’t ask. A rush of gratefulness entered my heart. My self-concern was put away. Then I was able to enter into his presence and worship. God made a way!