A few weeks ago I had to face a medical procedure that I knew would be painful. The normal way I handle a difficulty like this is to draw into myself and face it in my own strength. Of course there is considerable anxiety that comes with this method of facing a difficulty, and I am usually stressed out. But by God’s mercy this time was different.
I am finding it difficult to explain what caused it to be different, so I’ll just tell you what happened. I found myself aware of God’s presence. The more I focused on his presence the more relaxed I became. While the procedure was going on, I looked to God. When my focus began to shift, I reminded myself to keep my focus on God. For the first time in my life, I walked through a difficulty not thinking that I was alone but recognizing that God was with me. I tell you it made the procedure almost pleasant.
I am not alone! I know this, but now I’ve experienced it. I am thankful for my family and friends who prayed diligently for me. They helped me break through to this new awareness.
Later that day, my daughter Ruth gave me a greeting card, and in the text was this line, “You rush to help when in faith we draw near.” Yes, that’s it. God’s presence is always with me. I experience him when in faith I draw near.
“And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.” Matthew 28:20