The other evening I was driving home from work feeling tired but happy. The next thing you know, I began thinking about a past sin – one that brings me deep regret. My good mood was being dashed. Suddenly, I remembered that this sin has been forgiven and forgotten by God. It is in the past, and I’ve surrendered it at the foot of the cross. I have been set free by the blood of Jesus. Dwelling on past iniquities produces nothing good.
Others might want to condemn me for past sins, but God doesn’t. He forgave me. I am reminded of what King David said in Psalm 51:4 “Against you, you only, have I sinned…” Ultimately, though my sins have injured others, my sins are against my Father who is ruler of heaven and earth. With love, he overcame the sentence of death that I earned by sinning. He gave his one and only Son to pay for my sins. This has been done. Jesus said, “It is finished” (John 19:30).
So why am I still haunted by sins that God has forgiven? I seem to hold on to my guilt. Perhaps my self-depended nature won’t let me forgive myself. Maybe those sins that I think I’ve surrender at the foot of the cross weren’t really surrendered. A touch of eternal reality might be needed here. Psalm 103:11-12 reminds, For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his love for those who fear him; as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us.
Since God has forgiven and forgotten my sins, and he has set me free from the law of sin and death, the appropriate response would be to discontinue wallowing in them. What good is freedom if I keep returning to the bondage from which I’ve been freed?
So I exclaim, “What sins?”